LETTER TO MONEY

Dear Money,
      I miss you. Okay, I really miss you. Dreams about you have been really surreal. Sometimes I don’t feel like waking up if you are not in my hands.
  
Sometimes, I ask myself “Am I money crazed?”, everything I do seems to revolve around you or is it fear that drives me to you? Maybe I don’t want to be a mediocre or I’m too scared of the future. A future without you will be terrible.

You see, I’m a bit of a hypocrite. I know happiness is temporary , I know you can’t buy everything, still I chose you, sometimes I buy happiness with you even though I know its temporary. I can’t blame people who do the craziest thing for you, heck I myself do it too. For people who do demeaning things to have you, they were probably like every normal being thinking they will never do shitty things or go extra length for you.

     You are loved, I know you know that. You are harmless yet you are harmful. You might be the only thing that is very toxic but not feared. No one fears you as much as they fear your distant cousin Poverty. It’s amazing how much we fear him yet he serves as a motivation. I am not rich neither do I want to be poor. Saying I’m broke is sugarcoating not having enough, but then self deceit is a game we play to trick the mind into a sense of calm.

I love you. I really do just like the billions of people on earth and we may never mean any word or sentence than that. Yet, you choose who you want to be with. I want you, no I need you. Sometimes, I wonder what will be next for me if I finally get you. I don’t pint my happiness on you, even though I consider you as one of my source of happiness.

You come in different shapes, sizes and different value. It is like a neatly arranged bottles of poison and we are to choose one poison. Some of us chase you till death. Some catch up with you only to die early. Some you have befriended from birth only for them to lose you, Some you stay with but never satisfy them, they will always want more of you.

Like I said you are a poison, a choice we have to make in which choosing wisely is not in the options. What’s amusing is we know this, still we don’t care or should I say we do. We just don’t see the bigger picture we rather prefer to stick to “if I get the money, everything will fall into place”.

Even i believe everything will fall into place if have you. What do I know, I just miss you.

                                  Yours expecting,
                                  Jawondo Jr.

WE SHOULD ALL BE PESSIMISTS

Life is full up and downs, we’ve been told that a million times. They also told us that truth is a bitter pill to swallow, they forgot to tell us to swallow it.  They tell us to embrace the pain, but they forgot to tell us how. The truth is heavy to hold on to, so our minds created something better.

We couldn't bear to stare at despair, so we created hope. Hope is addictive, it’s necessary I must say. But then, there are negative hopes. The type that makes you forget reality; the type that makes you feel you can conquer, even though you have nothing to conquer with.
Don’t get me wrong, believing in your dreams is different from hoping they come true.  Example; an optimist starts a business and is confident that everything is going to work out, he sticks to positive energy while he sings “Bad energy stay far away”. A pessimist in the other hand believes in the business, yet knows it can fail. So he comes more prepared, by having at the back of his mind that things can get worse or better. For the optimist, if the business succeeds then life continues. But if it fails, the tendency of the optimist becoming a nervous wreck and getting worse is as high as a kite. When the business fails for a pessimist who foresaw the shit storm, it will still hurt but as not as much as the optimist whose only mantra is positive energy. Below is three out of the many characteristics of a pessimist:

EXPECTING LESS IS MORE

Pessimists do not expect a lot; they do get happy with the little things they get out of life. They appreciate life better, with all her monstrosity. 
Hope is a creation of helplessness, when we are at our wits end and in despair. Hope is what keeps us going, however most of our hope is born out of the need to give ourselves a false sense of serenity. Deep inside we know things might not go our way, but the voice that tells us the truth, has been muffled by constant feeding of the false sense of calm with hope. For a pessimist, hope is not used as a last resort or as a go-to when desperate. Hope is used as motivation, the sentence “if I hope to do this, I have to do this and that to make it happen” can be considered as motivation rather than wishful thinking.

KNOW WHEN TO GIVE UP

A Pessimist know when to give up, knowing when to give up is a good tool to have. People either give up too early or give up too late. Chasing your dreams is cool, what if your dream isn’t worth chasing. Doing what you love is cool, what if it doesn’t love you. I’m not saying you shouldn’t chase your dreams, or have goals or any other bullshit a motivational speaker will say. I was a dreamer myself, then I came to realise that, for dreams to come true, one has to actually stop dreaming and start working towards it. And while working towards it, also know that the dream may not come through. That is life, it just hurts.

PLAN B

A pessimist always has a plan B, being a pessimist you hardly get shocks when things don’t go your way, for you knew it could happen. That’s why having a Plan B should be a priority. The quote “If you have a plan B, your plan A isn’t good “might be one of the stupid quotes I have ever seen. If possible, you want to have a plan Z I’d say go for it.
Be an overbearing optimist, blocking out reality than facing it or living life with the utmost preparation and awareness of consequences. It all depends on choice, and if at this point you are wondering if pessimism not just negative thinking? Well you maybe right and you maybe wrong.

Jawondo Jr.

HAPPINESS IS AN ILLUSION

There is nothing like everlasting happiness.
You can't be Happy forever. Happiness is more of an illusion, it is what you want it to be. You can create it, you can buy it. Yes, happiness can be bought.

The funny thing here is happiness temporary. It is like an high, in which after the effect is gone, we hit a deeper low and want more of it. Nobody takes antidepressants knowing fully well of its addictive tendencies, if the end result of the pills is not mood altering.

We will always pursue happiness, i mean who doesn't want to be happy. We all detest her brother named sadness. We all avoid it, but it still finds us. Some by our own creation, some by circumstances beyond our control.
One thing they have in common is that they are both temporary. However, while it is easy lose happiness, sadness stays longer. Because it comes slowly, creeping up every time happiness fade away.

Happiness is an illusion and it will remain so, it is what you want it to be. It is what you deemed it to be. You can choose to be happy though it'll be temporary. Even the ardent pessimist will never choose to be sad. But then....

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